What is this about?: You know this story — and the names within it. Michelle McNamara died before she could see the Golden State Killer arrested, or this book published. In this she writes about how this case captured her, and why. It’s atmospheric as it describes a different time and the man that terrified people then.
What else is this about?:
A masterful true crime account of the Golden State Killer—the elusive serial rapist turned murderer who terrorized California for over a decade—from Michelle McNamara, the gifted journalist who died tragically while investigating the case.
“You’ll be silent forever, and I’ll be gone in the dark.”
For more than ten years, a mysterious and violent predator committed fifty sexual assaults in Northern California before moving south, where he perpetrated ten sadistic murders. Then he disappeared, eluding capture by multiple police forces and some of the best detectives in the area.
Three decades later, Michelle McNamara, a true crime journalist who created the popular website TrueCrimeDiary.com, was determined to find the violent psychopath she called “the Golden State Killer.” Michelle pored over police reports, interviewed victims, and embedded herself in the online communities that were as obsessed with the case as she was.
At the time of the crimes, the Golden State Killer was between the ages of eighteen and thirty, Caucasian, and athletic—capable of vaulting tall fences. He always wore a mask. After choosing a victim—he favored suburban couples—he often entered their home when no one was there, studying family pictures, mastering the layout. He attacked while they slept, using a flashlight to awaken and blind them. Though they could not recognize him, his victims recalled his voice: a guttural whisper through clenched teeth, abrupt and threatening.
I’ll Be Gone in the Dark—the masterpiece McNamara was writing at the time of her sudden death—offers an atmospheric snapshot of a moment in American history and a chilling account of a criminal mastermind and the wreckage he left behind. It is also a portrait of a woman’s obsession and her unflagging pursuit of the truth. Framed by an introduction by Gillian Flynn and an afterword by her husband, Patton Oswalt, the book was completed by Michelle’s lead researcher and a close colleague. Utterly original and compelling, it is destined to become a true crime classic—and may at last unmask the Golden State Killer.
Ages ago, I read the true crime account of a harrowing trial in Australia by author Helen Garner. It made me uncomfortable to the extent that Garner put herself in the lives of the families affected by the tragedy, and attended the trial. It’s not to say anything about the book was bad, but is a testament to the power of Garner’s writing and the intimacy she was able to create.
I’ll Be Gone in The Dark is something else entirely, but no less an intimate story, a search for answers.
When I first started reading this all I knew about this was that the Golden State Killer (GSK) had been caught, and that the author had passed before seeing that happen. I remember an interview with her husband, Patton Oswalt, saying that she had dubbed the killer the GSK and that this book probably put pressure on the police to make an arrest.
The intimacy in this account comes from McNamara’s letting readers into her life as much as she let readers into the case itself and everything she found. She charts a course from the beginning of this case, and the rapes and then murders, never holding back from the brutality of it, but … it’s hard to explain. Knowing that is was a woman delving into this case of violence against women made me cheer her search on in a way. She never invades the victims’ lives, usually relying on past statements to work it into the story.
Her descriptions of the times and the suburbs from way back when are vivid and draw you into a much simpler era, which makes the crimes themselves all the more horrific as a result. She charts her discussions with cops from those times, who worked so hard to find the Golden State Killer, and the crime scene techs that took up the cause when the tech changed, and databases were created that made searching for DNA all the simpler.The names of these are words you’ll hear in your favourite cop shows, but the book shares how and why these databases came into existence, changing how crime was fought. It also gives you a better idea of how long cops have been searching for this guy.
The other interesting thing is, McNamara herself. In the parts that she writes (most of the book; with the last chapter finished by her colleagues), she lays her obsession bare, describing forgetting her anniversary because something happened with the case, or researching these horrible acts in her daughter’s playroom, or getting that one text about the case that she’s been waiting for in the middle of a premier, or leaving a premier to go home and research, and lie to someone who thinks she’s heading home bc she has a new baby. McNamara doesn’t shy away from that part of her obsession, for it truly was.
Why do people do this? Bc they want answers, because it happened in their lives at a time when things like this never happened. She describes her fellow sleuths online and the lengths to which they go to, and spend money, to be able to compile lists of suspects, with details upon details … and it could all be wrong. But they keep going. It’s an unexpected insight into how the internet changed this sort of sleuthing, and how cops can use the internet sleuths to their advantage.
I’ll be Gone in the Dark is the story of how and why this case grabbed McNamara and dragged her down a rabbit hole in order to find the GSK. It’s about how she willingly went down that rabbit hole, and her desire for the truth drove her.
I started reading this because of the Audible show I reviewed a couple of months ago, and wondered just why it made me feel off kilter. That show had a culprit to point to, this book doesn’t – and even though the guy was arrested, McNamara didn’t know that. Her desire to find the man was palpable while reading this – every cop and victim statement felt the same way. They have their closure, MM never will.