What is this about?: Hannah is the second of Alissa’s girlfriends to go missing in the span of 18 months. The story from that starting point begins promisingly enough and is utterly completely let down by the ridiculous ending.
Who am I kidding: Spoilers ahoy, because for a book this bad, I need you to know what I am talking about.
Blurb: Alissa Reeves came out for Hannah Desarno. Hannah is smart, beautiful, and has just gone missing. Worse, she isn’t Alissa’s first girlfriend to disappear. Eighteen months ago, Alissa was caught kissing bad girl Lana Meyers. Too scared to admit her feelings for Lana, Alissa let her friends blame Lana. Weeks later when Lana disappeared, no one in their small town thought much of it until months later when her body was found.
With Hannah gone, Alissa finds herself following clues that will help her discover what happened to both girls, and the truth will change everything.
I have a confession to make: I got this from Netgalley, and something went seriously wrong with my Kindle app to the point that I thought that the file had been corrupted, but I ended up having another version hidden in the depths of it… but I had already explained all this to the publisher before I found this second version.
I wish I’d never found another file.
So promising beginning: Alissa is in school; and in love with Hannah, and they’re stupidly cute in the face of bigotry and bullshit from former friends and their parents. And it’s hard, it’s accurate.
But, Lana, Alissa’s ex rears her head, or mention of her comes between Hannah and Alissa, who have a fight over Lana. Her body was found after her disappearance and naturally rumours fly in small towns and small schools, which results in Hannah confronting Alissa over her relationship with Lana. They were caught kissing by two mean girls, and Alissa’s best friends at the time. Alissa, who is a raging coward at this point, lets them think that it’s not mutual, that Lana caught her by surprise and even goes so far as to call her disgusting in front of her friends, just to make sure she’s the cool girl.
Is it realistic? Probably, and so I hate Alissa and feel sympathy for her all at once. But, even so, it’s also cruel.
Months after Lana’s disappearance, Alissa comes out for her new girlfriend Hannah, but Hannah calls her on her bullshit behaviour with Lana all those months ago and promptly disappears after. Cue Alissa being frantic, and trying to find her with her old friend Nick. And dealing with a mother who thinks she should try dating Nick, because being a lesbian is probably a phase, and once she dates Nick she’ll get over it.
Look, aside from the cliché right there, I am trying to find something good to say so I’ll say this: At least her parents have a presence in the book and don’t follow the YA trope of not being around at all.
But then the ending happened: which is the most effed up thing. Spoilers, people, Spoilers – ALL OF THEM.
Turns out Lana faked her death and banded together with Nick to teach Alissa a lesson for not loving them.
Straight guy and lesbian band together to teach the lesbian they’re both lusting after not to mess with them.
I can’t get over how asinine that ending is. The straight guy lusting over Hannah, and the girlfriend she hurt suddenly become homicidal and psychopathic because they couldn’t have Hannah? Seriously. That’s lazy writing, masquerading as a twist. It’s just awful.